It's the little things that get ya when you weren't paying attention.

On Memory

2009-12-28T22:29:21Z

... You can remember a lot in your sleep when you forget something important.

The only thing that needs to be said is this: If you have ever lied to yourself for any reason that the easiest way to fix any problems that may come from that is to stop lying.

It feels good to be free from you Nicole~!

Whew, life is epic!

School

2009-12-23T06:13:03Z

I guess I am a Viking. Got my license, and wanged my knee skateboarding. I'm walking with a fuckhorrible limp.

~~Happy~~ Holidays!

washedupdropout @ 2009-12-18T01:02:00

2009-12-18T09:02:29Z

Success! Now the news.

2009-11-09T23:24:08Z

To anyone who knows me and has yet to hear the news I have amnesia, not complete amnesia. I'm starting to remember semi-recent things.

If you still speak to me, or even if you don't I need help to fill in the gaps and I would love to meet anyone who knows me and considers me their friend, especially if I met and sustained a relationship with you during/after 2002 up to now.

My email is prettz@gmail.com
I have a facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/samueljholmes?ref=profile

And I am sporadically online to chat here are the chat services I have regained access to.

MSN Messenger: 'prettz_@hotmail.com' is no longer available, it is now 'prettz@live.com'

Yahoo Messenger: 'prettzl' still works but I don't know the password I have access to it when I'm on my laptop.

AIM: 'prettzsirbaka' still works. New names 'prettzlsays' and 'washedupdropout'.

ICQ: 62236377 as always~

Contact me in any way you can!

Dragging it out is one thing...

2009-11-01T23:19:59Z

I'd be lying if I said I regret nothing.

I regret that you still don't take me seriously.

{LSD}

2009-10-17T08:53:19Z

I want to lose control again.

{Things are going to start changing}

2009-10-14T09:00:41Z

News hit the presses today.

I'm going to be a man soon.

Look out world!

{I think you found the words.}

2009-10-08T22:43:34Z

"I'm on a planet without air, and you're my oxygen tank. I don't know when it happened, but I realized that you're my Prozac; the only thing on earth to banish my manic-depression. In your presence I find salvation from this never ending anxiety that the sky is slowly crushing me; taking on weight and pushing down, Hell swallowing everything from below. Together we walk on air."

I love you too {Ezra}.

I don't usually care enough to use one of my other equally pretentious LJ icons... Usually.

2009-09-28T04:23:16Z

Working on a project right now for my next YouTube video.

Also, the score so far is as such:

Camera: 2
Me: 6

I've had 1 video eaten and the one I thought I was shooting today simply not record because I didn't press the button hard enough. So the next "other project that I'm doing in regard to hair above my shoulders" WILL be a success because the third time is a charm.

Also I have a tripod in the works, just need to buy a bolt that threads with the spot on the bottom of the camera correctly~ I might even mold one.

And just so I don't miss out on my second opportunity to tell some random person to fuck off I thought I'd tell everyone, especially you, to fuck off in a prompt and orderly fashion.

P.S.
Just found out that DJ is more than likely a measure 11 candidate~

7 years, no parole, no early release. Felon, out of jail at 30~

Could I be happier?

[The City]

2009-09-25T03:36:05Z

I'm back in Greshamtown again.

Already donated plasma once this week, going again tomorrow.

Posted a video on YouTube of my time at the farm.

More in a while, time for sleep~

{Weekend Update}

2009-09-21T00:16:34Z

Yay~ I get a day off. I decided that rather than sleep in all day that I'd come down to the farm house and drop a few megabytes of science on the internet.

But since the internet is so slow I'm mostly just updating facebook and getting the shiz ready for my youtube video editing.

Facebook photos updated, only 1 "new" photo really of my "beard".

(Blisters on my hands)

2009-09-14T20:46:08Z

It feels almost as if [I haven't done a, real, hard day's work in my life]. It's the (blisters on my hands) that tell me this.

Why doesn't hard {work make} me [tired].

Working on another vLog, update imminent.

[Oops, I did it again] or {Reinventing the wheel}

2009-09-12T13:36:49Z

'Yesterday was (a lot more interesting than I'd like to give it credit for)'

But I still ended up {not even noticing it was the 11th} until [the day after].

Then again somehow {I planned ahead} enough that my {DS's} clock didn't say it was the 11th until this morning, which is obviously the wrong date.

So at some point [I consciously worked against myself to forget]- (oxymoron)- nonetheless it's been a [politically charged] week, even without the faux-holiday of [9/11] falling on the end of the week. Freyjudagr, the 11th, marks the day of public worship in (Islam). Which may have meant that the (potentially fictional Usama Bin Laden) was probably {throwing one hell of a party}, probably something like the ["cave rave"] from {The Matrix: Reloaded}.

Anyway, lot-o-crap going down in groove town D.C. for sure. The US is going down hill faster than my [optimistic] "next ten years, and you can quote me on that" prediction from (2 years ago).

* (Obama) addressed the [GOP] about ("Lies") amidst ("Hope")
* [GOP Rep. Joe Wilson debacle, apology] and (ass-covering)
* {Ellen} makes it to {American Idol}
* {I} began {studying} a potential (medicinal application) for the {Brain Age games}.

The [US] is picking up steam~ almost as if (we're all being loaded into the firebox) one at a time to keep the boiler going. Not saying it's (communism), not even saying I'm getting even {more pessimistic}. Mostly I'm saying that I really need to just {stop reading the news and focus} on (myself) the 99+% that I should be focused. Cause really, {am I kidding myself}, when did I become a {doomsayer}?

{I think I got 4 hours of sleep, time to rape the day}.

2 down 30 to go~

2009-09-10T19:00:52Z

Got my latest tooth pulled professionally a little bit ago.

I'm fighting gagging from the numbness in my throat.

Back at the farm soon.

Back in the city

2009-09-08T07:05:35Z

[I'm in Gresham for a bit here] (to get myself sorted).

[The infection] is {mostly over with}. I did not miss [television] at all.

I may qualify for a {16k yearly grant} for school because {I want to teach}.

I have been neglecting my (computer) and [the internet] a lot recently.

I apologize to {anyone who cares}. I miss people... well, a few people. Mostly 2 people.

Actually only 2 people. And {the farm}, I miss {GeerCrest} a lot.

(Going to a doctor tomorrow). I don't even really know what a (naturopath) is, but I guess I find out tomorrow.

I'm regretting not bringing the {woofer} for my {2.1 setup}, [stereo] just fails.

[The more you use it the more it hurts]

2009-09-03T17:43:42Z

[Mouth] is causing me grief! {I haven't done a lick of work since my second day here} because the head staff noticed that [my face is swollen]. Turns out I have an abscess, top right side, in my [mouth].

Probably (going back into town after a bit today) to get a prescription for some [antibiotics] of some kind. I've been gargling with sage tea and taking flower essences and chewing thistle and drinking steeped some kind of root or another. Hell I just took a cotton swab of clove oil and put it all over the painful part of my gum, [BURNING NUMBNESS]. It's hard to believe that I've ever {smoked a clove} because that stuff is [THE DEVIL].

Anyway, I feel good {being in such a supportive and healing place}. But I think [my mouth] may just be a bit too far beyond natural healing capabilities. It's so fucked and (I haven't been to a dentist for a cleaning in 10+ years). I need some {teeth yanked} and [replaced] and [drilled] and {capped} and I need to be told (I'm not flossing enough). That's for god damn sure.

(p.s.)
I've updated the bottom of the{disclaimer}.

Good afternoon from GeerCrest

2009-08-31T20:09:12Z

Hi! So I've got very low connectivity wireless at 18.0Mbps which is somewhat sporadic but it's still internet.

So I'll be able to update at least, so bringing my computer was not a fail.

More after dinner probably, unless I'm too tired. ^^

I'm a teacher~

2009-08-29T20:27:24Z

I'm moving to Geercrest Farm to live, work and teach.

See you later internets!

(Fan) <---==== {Shit}

2009-08-25T01:45:12Z

Family matters most encroaching.
Home improvement fast approaching.
Growing pains, I'm reproaching.
Burn notice? More like poaching.

Things are fading in and out of focus, the [good] are turning into the [bad] and I'm mostly working toward just getting the ground to stand on [my own two feet]. I've got plenty of strength to stand again, I'm just not on the right kind of hard-pack at all.

I'm heading east in a time sensitive manner at this point.

And now for something completley different!

2009-08-19T06:02:49Z

To be your lover when you need to be loved,
your doctor when you are ill,
your army when you go to war,
your umbrella when life rains down on you,
your rock when you get weary,
your shield when you need defense,
your spirit when you are drained,
your pillow when you need to rest,
your voice when no one can hear you,
your ear when no one will listen,
your comfort when you feel pain,
your hero when you are under duress,
your sunshine when darkness falls,
your answer when questions arise,
your inspiration to overcome obstacles,
your hand to hold when you are frightened,
your kiss that wakes you everyday,
and your "I love you" each and every night.

I am yours... all of me.

Happy Birthday Ezra, Birdy, Starshine.

RIOTOUS LAUGHTER

2009-08-19T04:20:48Z

1 out of 3 getting what they deserve!

hyoue_inugami btw.

I haven't laughed so hard in ages!

I'm a firm believer in karma now.

p.s.
For added lulz read the comments.

Nicole and Kevin, you're next.

PaRse anD PreTensE

2009-08-12T23:40:14Z

Totally self-absorbed these days.

Miss my social life a bit. Need school to start faster.

Apathy as well.

Slim Pickin's

2009-08-05T14:49:38Z

The updates that I could give full of new and interesting things are not happening, thankfully.

Seems like anything that could potentially be new and interesting would consist solely of [BAD NEWS].

Since no [BAD NEWS] has occurred within the last day or so aside from my [BANK ACCOUNT BEING OVERDRAWN] I'm fucking stellar.

Look forward to more updates about seemingly [BAD NEWS].

I Miss You

2009-08-03T15:48:44Z

In 16 days it will be the 21st anniversary of a miracle.

[Pimp Niggas Don't Pay a Dime]

2009-08-03T02:24:48Z

-_- Internet is still off.

Short impersonal update from a friends house.

I'm seriously scraping the bottom here, even with all the help I'm getting.

I hope that somewhere someone is empowered by my failures.